finally it's end , the month full of prays and hungers i'm glad it's over. i can't say i'm the winner, missed some prays and i never go to that group of qur'an reading no matter how hard my mom tried to drag me there.. but still i'm trying to be more religious than before and bravely i said i've lifted up a bit the scale of my faith hahahaha i feel cooler now, means i'm far away from hell? *get kicked*

i'm very busy during the ied, cos i'm the one organized the whole open house event in my region. more than thousand guest list i gotta make sure which one should get in the list and which one is not. pluss how many people they're gonna take . the catering, the invitations the decoration, the band, the security, the monies all the A to Z things it's all on my shoulders.i did this job for 5 years since the beginning of my career but still i got nervous when the day is arrived. i can't even sleep the night before i'm worrying about everything.. is the catering okay.. is the invitation get to the right people, if no one missed on the list thank god i had a great partner this year. she's really helpfull eventough she's still new.

i wake up in the morning, doing the ied pray in the mosque with my sister without the proper moslem dress. aish i should've get those dress on my shopping list next year. i just realized that i never really bought a proper moslem dress in every ramadhan sale. i'm too crazy on buying those booteg DVD even i've spent almost 500 thousand rupiah's on that last week. usually i just wear my sister's. she's the one love buying clothes but this year she just bought one piece with her pink hijab she publish the pic on Fb and everybody think she's me. mybe i'll post my pic later.

i'm glad the open house well done , after that i take 2 hours ride to my province capital. we had another open house in the governor residence. it's fun actually, when you're gonna have a 200 km empty road? it's only happen the moslem big day. no traffic jam, no truck, less car, buses in the highway. like you own all the daendels from the east to west. my minds fly to One of pramoedya anantatoer'S book titled "THE DAENDELS ROAD". i remember about many inocent people died on the making of this 1000 km road during the dutch invation in java just like he mention on the book. if not becos of them we're indonesian will never had our long and smooth road just like we had now.

enough about the mind flying things, we back safely to our town and i get my self continue my numb3rs series heheheheh. my home still empty cos my aunt spent her ramadhan with her whole family in mecca which i'm glad they did that. means i don't have to face more "unfamiliar" in my house . they're not gonna home untill 2oth, and they're gonna bring my mom lot's of arabian things. i wish they can bring me this arabian knight heheheheeh this ied i just want my syeikh haido al takrai



btw i think i'm addicted to this math rock star charlie.



okay he's weird he's not old and definitely not typical bad boy, he's against all my pattern. in everymovie / series i always love the old man or the bad one. reading my pattern i mean how i always love grissom the scientist, dan taylor the ex navy and horatio caine in all CSI series, how i chose gary oldman than keanu reeves in dracula , i should've love don the special agent FBI or the hilarious larry than charlie becose they're more mature. but why i like this charlie? becos he's the main character? becos he's jenious? no.. maybe i like charlie becos i've seen him before somewhere. i keep thinking about that while i'm finishing this series. and i got the answer today when i rewatched vamps Live US DVD during my trip to semarang.

i see charlie in this hyde's look





look at the curly hair and their shortness... they're really look alike heh? just my king hyde sama didn't have that much facial hair .hahahahah i figure it out, now i can sleep well
and an addition on my entry about hyde's attendance in yasu's concert :

i really love YASU'S "DON'T LOOK BACK HE'S MINE" mc LOL..
can he be more hilarous than that? XDDDD

THE LAST IED MUBARAK TO ALL MY MOSLEM FRIENDS.. HOPE YOU ALL BE THE WINNER OF THIS RAMADHAN CHALLENGE.

SOUTH AND NORTH

last night i had my insomnia back.. ooooh i hated that, i still can't sleep after had 12 hours work shift. i did that on purpose becos i start to hate my home, i have no desire to go back home. my dad again.. his bad temperamen pluss his sickness makes drive me crazy. huff the only one makes me back home is my mom.. ooo no.. i start rambling abt my own personal life *PLAKK* but on my sleepless night i found this SECRET REUNION DVD



on my long time abandoned shelf in my room. i bought it about 3 month ago along with lots of DVD which i haven't see untill now. i picked it becos it had :



song kang hoo my fav actor after choi min sik .. i love him since his colaboration with CHOI MIN SIK in SHIRI
and this cute KANG DONG WOO.. I love his performance in MAUNDY THURSDAY.. oo i spent box of kleenex while watching it. it's a tearjerker movie





the movie is about spy, secret agent, the scrimmage between (Lee Han Gyu/Song Kang Ho) and (Kang Ji Won /Kang Dong Won) they both are special agent for south and north korean agent . They exchange glances at the crime scene of a botched assassination attempt to a Northern defector living in Seoul. The incident leads to Lee's discharge for mishandling the case. Sung takes the blame for Tae-soo, another spy who betrayed him, and goes into hiding from his fanatical commander Shadow.

6 year later they met again, in different place .... lee recruting him as his asistant in his private detective bussines just to use him to bust the whole north korea spy ring, meanwhile Kang pretend not knowing lee intention and agree to work with him to infiltrate the south korean security. two man with different background and live together, playing cat and mouse game, pretend they didn't know each other background. they finally found out that they had lot's in common...they both far away from family and abandoned by their organization. that's makes them blood brother.... untill their past return and force them to stand in different side anymore just like what happened 6 years ago. i love the way they humanized the protagonist. this Lee han Gyu is not a perferct man eventough he is a professional agent working to north korean Intelegent service. and the antagonist ( kang Ji Won) is not a coldbloodist.. it showed on how he treat the vietnamese bride that they catched.

i love this kind of spy movie.. james bond, Jason Bourne or the hillarious pink panther. spy movie about north and south east and west , story abt what happened before they demolished the berlin wall or before USSR lost his power and disintegrated into lots of small country. but again my fave always korean spy movie.. why's that? becos they had their real spy.. they had their real enemies behind their borderlines. i think i had to put this movie on my fave nort-south korean theme movies list along with shiri, double agent, JSA, Taeguki and Welcome to Dongmokhol.

korea is the only country in the world which is still devided in two becos of their different ideology .correct me if there's still more country in africa or somewhere else with the same problem as korea. they like brothers who seperated for years. they miss each other, they want to reunite as one integrated nation.. the nation of korea. South korea as the older brother and south as the younger . but they can't reunite becos the older brother's friend and saviour which is USA had a big fight with his younger brother. the forever and after battle between comunism and liberalism. i wonder when they can reunite again just like what German did. perhaps we have to wait after the great leader of north Korea Kim Jung Il pass away? but he still fine and healthy according to the news.. and he had his son as his successor.... hmmm
korean's national team playing tonight in world cup



haish.. i'm rambling too much .. i think i'll try to get sleep with this book...



YAY another gabriel garcia marques book.. very interesting one, everyone knows that he's gonna be assasinated .. but still no one can save him..
ah yep who's colonel aureliano buendia? Gabriel garcia marques mention him a lot in his books..

the last.. i'm glad toshi is back and he's just fine..cos i've start to think abt bad things happened to him thanks to pampai's talk. he's so cute in his short pants

this is the most trending topic on twitter lately.. about the porn video between the most popular band leader in my country with his girlfriends yep he's a player XD. okay i'm not a big fan of him, i never watch tivi but i knew it, becos it's everywhere and everybody in my country talk about this so much.. people didn't remember him as a person with lot's talent in music and acting.. they just know him as "ARIEL PETERPORN" perhaps everybody on twitter heard about this cos.. you know we.. indonesian is everywhere XD

but here's Lolastic pic that i found related to the case... it's damn funny.. sorry it's in indonesian.... it's fake stat of ariel in FB and all the women who play with him in the video made a comment there.. pluss the last comment came from popular male artis wkwkwkw



this shame accident happened on him becos he lost his laptop, come one everybody has their own guilty pleassure. this is ariel guilty pleasure,, he love to have his sex activity taped, and he meant it to be private. but somebody with cruel intention spread over the 32 video's, two of them are romoured with guys YAY!! i wanna see it *PLAKK* poor him.. he made a mistake and people already judge him for his deviate hobby. people talk talk and talk about how bad he is, try to be a good's representation on earth to give him the punishment.
aish that remaind me of my hot discussion FB with an example OF hypocrite people... saying this bla bla bla.. wants to kill ariel , wants him to make an apologize in public media for the video. she got nothing to do with ariel so why she had to be this mad? saying all the rude words for him in internet, lots people did that.. try to give him social punishment. but i don't think we have right to do that, eventought he's a celebrity we have no connedtion on him right? there's paties who have more right to punish him, investigate him first. maybe they can't punish him becos all he did was becos of sexual deviation and it's an ilness.. the court will decide that he need to go to docter to cure his mental illness than go to prison right?

television makes people feel more connected to each other even they never met them in person. all ariel fans feels they have right to show ther dissapoinment even in wrong manner. i agree people should reduce their time in front of tivi. watching tivi is sucking your soul gradually, you'll be more curious about other people life's after watching some reality show.. people start to explode their personal matter on tivi. aish i hate reality show. i am a person with motto "mind your own shit" i don't like people interviewing my bussiness and i don't like to interfere others problem. all the comments on internet and tivi about this case dissapointed me. they change become so mean to others. i hope all the comment on tivi and internet not represent all population. i hope there's lot more people there still want to respect others and remain to show their empathy for the vic.



and moore pic
shuse with ikuooo



yasu's new hair ooooo he's curl now wkwkwk



and this cute bride with white hair XD.. his hair is whiter now.... LOL at the shy KAZ hiding behind hyde's back











the last... i've watched confucius, as a gift for me after the exhausted days.. OMG being part of a concert music is very hard. for a person who hate crowded like me it's getting hard. i gotta deal with those crazy fans who wants to met the artis. they all gone crazy when we open the door ooo i'm lucky i can get out of there alive. not mention the concert... aish they had a punk band as the opening.. things getting chaos when there's a fight between the audience most of them are boys.. more than a tousand people there, headbang each other. thAnk god we had lots of security there and i watch from the VIP section.
but still i have to wait untill the show over then i can get home and sleep



aish back to the movie, it's stared by chow yun fat, i;m glad i choose this movie than jackie's kung fu oops karate kid. oh come on is that so difficult to change the karate word to kungfu? this is the most ridiculous movie title i've ever know. ah back to the movie.. i have no more to say.. it's epic.. i cried during the movie. i cried when watching him mistreated buy the king and then sent to exile. thw world really need more man like confusius.

my fave line from the movie

if a man can't change the world, he better start from changing himself first...

aish that's so touching becos lot of people who want to change the world, But they don't want to change themselves.

gay chingu?

apa sih impian cewek yang paling populer sekarang ini? jangan bilang kawin ma prince charming.. it's so yesterday, sejak prince charming divisualisasikan dengan begitu menjijikkan *i wanna puke at him* di Sherk untuk mengimbangi shrek yang jauuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuh sekali dari kesan ganteng , cakep, kakoooi etc etc etc ilang sudah minat saia pada prince charming barengan dengan ilangnya cinderella syndromku . kadang masih ada ituh impian tersirat di kepala geje saia ketika mendengar isu kalau pangeran william akan menikahi "the waity" katy bulan juni ini.. tappi sekarang tahun 2010 getu, 10 tahun berlalu sejak millenium jaman sudah berubah. impian cewek yang paling trend sekarang adalah punya gey chingu alias punya teman deket gey. Punya sahabat gey lebih menakjubkan daripada berhasil memacari salah satu anggota F4, baik ituh versi Taiwan, Jepun ato korea.. ato bahkan versi butlegnya alias keluaran indo wkwkw *aish kek DVD l'arc sajja*.



punya sahabat gey berarti punya teman yang bisa mengerti cewek..... syapa yang ga pengen punya temen cowok yang bisa diajak cerita segalanya? , bisa diajak belanja bareng , ke salon bareng, maskeran bareng dan nongton GAv bareng. kadang kitah lebih nyaman berteman dengan seseorang yang menganggap kita batu, gada rasa risih, jaim ato segala macam yang byasa mengiringi perasaan kita ketika behubungan dengan laki2. okay i'm a trasgender now tappi i was a girl *plakk* aga susah bagi cewek untuk bisa klop dengan perasaan laki, mars dan venus orbitnya beda geh. perasaan risih, jaim ato perasaan2 apalah yang byasa mengiringi kitah ketika berinteraksi dengan kaum adam. in my case... i had this terrible disease with guys. i'm okay with them as friend, as brothers... i had lot's of senpai and kouhai from my uni, most of them are boys and saia gapapa, tappi begitu mereka mulai menunjukkan niyat " spesial " kepada saia, saia akan langsung lari dan kami akan berakhir dengan tidak berbicara satu sama lain. maybe i am afraid of man's lust. tappi hal ituh akan berbeda jika berhubungan dengan gay chingu. i used to have a gay cingu.. dulu sebelum dya pindah karna berbagai alasan. dya tidak pernah mengaku tappi dunia sudah tahu tipikal pria macam apa dya. jadi seperti prinsip yang dijunjung tinggi dalam dunia gay.. i don't ask you don't tell kita tidak pernah membicarakan apa orientasinya dan saia juga ga bilang kalo saia pujoshi. paling tidak pertemanan yang sebentar ituh agak mengangkat PD saia di kalangan pujoshi. hello kalo kelian cuman baca2 dari FF ato nonton pelem saia pegang orangnya beneran wekekek *PLAKK*

so bisa dibilang kalo tren tahun 2009 - 2010 adalah gay.. persebaran musik jepang, anime dan manga juga diikuti dengan penyebaran trend yaoi, isu gey. bahkan boyben korea yang semula normal2 sajja mulai terpengaruh dengan fanservis ala japanese rock band. ciuman bibir antar pesonil.. kek kmaren yang saia lyat di salah satu DVD bonus asian star* HOEEEEEEEEEK* saia ga suka.. sebage orang yang terjun menjadi yaoi fangirl karna japanese rock merasa ga nyaman dengan keberadaan mereka yang seakan - akan menggunakan isu gey yang sekarang popular sekaligus memperalat para pujoushi untuk mendongkrak popularitas. katakan sajja 6 tahun yang lalu jika kalian bertemu dengan 10 orang di jalan dan bilang "yaoi" ga bakalan ada yang mudeng.. tappi sekarang dengan semakin mudah dan murahnya akses internet, semakin banyak forum yang menyediakan tret Fanfic di internet dijamin jika hal tersebut dilakukan lagi paling tidak akan ada satuh ato dua cewek yang dengan semangat akan berteriak haitsu ato gakuhai.



begitu pula dengan industri hiburan korea sekarang mereka lebih intens mengusung tema tsb. ga taw apakah seneng ato tidak, tappi melihat banyak orang di FB dan dimana2 bgitu excited akan haitsu ato gakuhai.. plus tag tagan poto lamma yang dolo pernah booming membuat saia merasa tua, haish waktu berlalu begitu cepat, okay saia tetep mendukung haitsu selamanya HAIL HAITSU !!! ato bideo toshiberhasil mengurangi kadar emoshi saia kepada haitsu? i dunno.. benar kata pujangga.. bahkan api abadi akan padam. jiwa haitsu akan tetap ada tappi tidak selalu berkobar2 seperti dolo . jiwa haitsu saia yang sekarang lebih tepat jika diibaratkan kek nyala lilin yang menentramkan hati *halah* terkadang beberkobar dan membangkitkan niatan untuk menulis sedikit analicik haitsu dari gambar2 ato bideo yang beredar paling tidak hal ituh tetep ada.. ahiya ingat masi punya utang satuh.


memang korea pernah aga memasukkan isu gey pada film2 laris kek the king and the clown, like a virgin, frozen flower, antik ato malah bener2 membuat pelem gey kek sutradara gey pulak kek boys meet boys, no regret and just friend yang sangat mengena di hati. tappi untuk serial baru - baru ini hanya ada dua yang aga menyentil tema ttg gey yakni you're beautiful, kife is beautiful *yang ik baru masuk daftar tonton* dan personal taste yang selesei saia tonton. untuk you're beautiful ga bisa bikin saia menonton sampe akhir.. sekip sekip geje sampe selesai, sementara yang personal taste lebih beruntung karna remot si raja singa rusak dan saia pantengin dari awal sampe akhir. aga berkesan nonton inni, mungkin karna ik serial diangkat dari novel laris personal preference karya lee Se in, selain ituh tentu sajja saia tertarik beli ik DVd karna isu gey yang dituliskan di majalah asian star.. serial ttg seorang pria yang menyamar menjadi gey gara2 ingin tinggal bersama teman wanitanya. aish kenapa bulan ini dua majalah lengganan saia sama2 salah membuat review. cinemags dengan review POPnya dan asian star dengan personal taste.

jika dibilang lee min ho menyamar sebagai gey agar bisa tinggal bersama dengan teman wanitanya, maka yang tersirat di pikiran saia lee min ho sebelom tinggal di rumah karakter cewek yakni Park Gae In sudah jatuh cinta kepada si cewek dan menyamar jadi gey agar bisa melakukan pendekatan dengan tinggal bersama. kenyataannya ik li min ho karna kesalahpahaman pura - pura menjadi gey untuk mempelajari desain rumah yang dibangun oleh ayah park gae in.. seorang legenda konstruksi korea yang memilih mengasingkan diri ke inggris pasca kematian istrinya.. karna rumah karakter cewek yakni park gae in adalah rumah tua yang dilestarikan dan tidak pernah dibuka selama 30 tahun. lee min ho perlu desain rumah ituh untuk bisa menang lomba desain untuk membangun mega proyek korea masa depan demi mengejar mimpinya untuk mengembalika perusahaan ayahnya yang direbut oleh ayah Han Chang Ryul.. yang kebetulan adalah mantan pacar Park Gae in.

serial ini menggunakan ramuan yang sama dengan ahomiya yang diperankan oleh haruka ayase dan full house. tokoh utama wanitanya sama - sama wanita yang payah sebage wanita tetapi baik hati, sementara tokoh prianya sangat sempurna dan cenderung perfeksionis. keduanya tinggal bersama dalam jangka waktu tertentu dikarenakan hal yang berlainan disesuaikan dengan imejinasi pengarang. tappi seperti pepatah jawa witing trisno jalaran saka kulino, mereka yang saling bertengkar pada akhirnya menjadi suka satuh sama lain. dan ketika mereka mau bersatu ada hal - hal yang menghalangi mereka untuk bersatu. penghalang dalam serial inni selain siluman rubah yang umum ada di semua serial adalah ke- gey-an li min hoi.



dan satuh lagi yang penting, saia sempat tertipu disinni. saia kira lee min ho adalah satu - satunya karakter gey disinni meski cuman pura - pura. saia lalai akan keberadaan direktur chui.. direktur pusat kesenian yang bertanggungjawab untuk pembangunan mega proyek korea masa depan. knapa ituh direktur sangat menaruh perhatian pada li min ho? saia kira ituh direktur jatuh cinta ma karakter cewek dan menjadi karakter no 3 di setiap serial ato dorama. karakter yang sebenernya sempurna, jatuh cinta ma karakter utama tappi ga mendapatkan hati si karakter cewek. seharusanya saia isa menebak kalo dya gey karna sudah ada si Han Cang Ryul yang menduduki kursi karakter no 2 haish lalai saia *tampar diri sendiri 69x*.

yang paling mengharukan bagi saia adalah adegan dimana lee min ho yang dikira gay mengaku terus terang kepada ketua dewan kesenian bahwa dia bukan gay. padahal lee min ho sudah mendapatkan simpati dari orang tersebt karna ada perasaan solidaritas antar gey. haish knapa dya musti menolaknyaaaaaaa mustinya dya kan isa jadi bi*GEBRAK MEJA KARNA EMOSHI* dan yang lebih mengharukan lagi ketika dya dengan lapang dada melepas lee min ho. dya bilang jika untuk bersama dengan Nona Park Gae In saia tidak apa - apa karna saia yakin dia bisa membuat anda bahagia.. haishhh terharunya saia tambahan pas ulang tahun si cewek direktur ituh belikan hadiah 3 tiket supaia isa pergi main es sketing bersama.. tappi ketika memberikan hadiah kepada si cwek dia remas2 satu tiket dan hanya memberikan dua. *gigit sapu tangan saking terharunya*. huff untung si direktur ga cakep, bukan tipikal seme idola kek oppa di no regret, tipikal ahjussi yang sudah tuwa tappi masi berstatus gey linglung yang ga tahu musti ngapain dengan orientasinya.

pada intinya serial inni berhasil membuat saia menonton sampai akhir tanpa skip skip.. meski aga diomelin majikan memang karna melotot depan tipi dan lupa membuat makan malam, menyiapkan air mandi buat majikan, mencuci tidak bersih.. tappi it's worthy.. paling tidak saia sadar meskipun telat kalo lee min ho ikuh ternyata guanteng pisaaaaaan. raut mukanya kek diukir dengan sempurna, hidungnya mancung serasi sekali dengan mulutnya yang aga tebal. and he's a good kisser wekekekek meski ga sehebat jun_chan wekekekeek *ngiler*...
ahiya ada cameo yoon eun hye dan oppa, meski oppa cuman duduk minum kopi tappi saia sudah seneng melihat wajah oppa sekelebat.

dan lagi tas gey , celana gantung andalan li min ho di personal taste, sekarang jadi trend



soalnya oppa di bad guy juga pake.. kyaaaaaaaaa cakep pisan



iki belom si jae wook yang pake ...hmm pengen segra nonton badguy jae wook dipastikan jadi karakter no 2, tappi syapa siluman rubahnya?.. aish baru tayang seri pertama *mule gunting semua celana di rumah majikan*

ehhh majikan pulang jaa besok dilanjuut lagi sapa tahu kapan2 isa dapat ide melanjutkan analicik haitsu yang kececeran... nyuuuu *buru2 menyambut majikan depan pintu*



hyde>> tadaimaaaaaaaa
tekki>> okaeriiiiiiiiii..
hyde>> sudah selesei nonton serial geynya? lapaaaaar
tekki>> bukan gey ih, ik cuman pura2 gey dya .. ahiya makan malam sudah syap
hyde>> ah pura2 .. ck ck sekarang trennya gey yah hmm, knapa makan malamnya ramen lagi?
tekki>> ga sempat geh tadi bangun kesiangan... sudah makan ik dulu besok saia jamin pasti enak
hyde>> kao nni kalo suka sesuatu pasti melalaikan saia.. kao juga cuci celana dalam saia ga bersih.. gosok punggung saia ga bersih.. kek mana sih kan malu saia keliyatan sudah saia pamerkan di bideo NICO dan DVD live 2009
tekki>> majikan juga gitu napa pulak pake pamer clana... kalo niyat gt knapa ga skaliyan dibuka celdamnya?*PLAKK*
hyde>> mana mungkin kubuka .. kao gosoknya ga beres masih banyak kotoran ga keangkat
tekki>> haish bilang ja masih banyak bekaaaaaaaaaas ...
hyde >> heee hee awas kao jangan mulei ngomong sembarangan
tekki>>yasu dahlah .. ahiya tappi tappi majikan aneh sekarang tren gey kok majikan malah bikin bideo kek DS samma sekali gada aura geynya
hyde>> aish kao sebut ituh lagi...



tekki>> dan knapa pulak tetsuya_san sekarang malah girly? disinni? *kasi majalah B pass terbaru* ada apah dengan kelian?hayoo ngakuu
hyde>> aish hentikanlah ga mut saia.. *bush*ahiya ikut kontes karoke devil side?
tekki>> aish karoke lagi.. majikan kan tahu kalo saia cuman biduan wese.. lagian saia ga bisa bikin bideonya..
hyde>> knapa? kurang sarpras? dasar kao wanita miskin... pasti ga punya handycam



tekki>> haish bukan geh.. kalo sarpras handy cam lengkap, studio ada sudah ada teman kantor yang mau syutingkan, miksing segala macam pokoknya beres.. tappi ik tema bideonya.. kalo nyanyi di studio berarti musti pake gaya en saia paling mati gaya depan kamera
hyde>> ah memang bole dimiksing? bukannya musti nyanyi langsung? ..trus trus kao pengen bikin bideo kek apa?
tekki>> pengen bikin bideo kek bideonya alanis tuh yang nyanyi di mobil sambil teriak2 geje keluarin kepala ke luar jendela..
hyde>> kek driver's high?
tekki>> betool.. tappi ga pake kejar2an..mosok saia musti minta tulung foreder polres buat kejer saia
hyde>> ide bagus tuh knapa ga cubah?
tekki>> saia ga bisa nyetir mobil geh.. aish gimana ih.. lagian lagunya susah pisan
hyde>> hmm memang kao wanita miskin nyetir ja ga bisa... ik megu bisa geh
tekki>> heish iyah saia sudah miskin geje lagi cuman mengandalkan gaji dari majikan
SIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIINGGGGGG
hyde>> aish becanda geh knapa kao jadi perasa gini?... sudah lyat angel trip? gimana suka?
tekki>> belom lyat sih
hyde>> belom lyat? belom dengar lagunya juga?
tekki>> belom
hyde>> knapa atuh byasa kao yang paling suka begadang donlot
tekki>> saia mau tunggu CD saia datang
hyde>> oooo...
tekki>> tappi tappi saia sudah sedikit dikasi lyat potohnya ma pampirang.. majikan cantik kek lizzy mcgiure di pelem when in rome..
hyde>> hee
tekki>> kek shakira juga *PLETAKKK*

nOTES : tekki pingsan dilempar piring sama majikannya yang suka KDRT

hyde>> eeeeeeee masih bisa ngomong...
DAN LAGI IK KNAPA SEMUA CELANA SAIA JADI PENDEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEK

beauty and the beast

i've watched vamps live 2009, this time i watched it all . just like what i've read in people's journal or blog it's great, especially the doc. i watched the doc first just like what vivian said.. as the 2 hours foreplay for my next bedscene with hyde *get slap*. it's really hydelicious. we can see anything there all part of their shows even when hyde sing honey in USJ . my fav part off course when he got his tattoo. he was in pain but i love his face there.. so cute, makes me wanna torture him more and more *sadistic mode on*





hyde on gakuran... look like toshi , he just need his yellow hair to be a highschool gang leader



he said abt kaz as no 1 host , very funny




and after that angel trap we got the beast.. wkwkwkwk oh hyde if you are the beast let me be the beauty, with the power of full moon i'll be as pretty as sailor moon.. wkwkwkwk
hmmm i wonder what's this album gonna sound like.
ah tomorrow is 18.. means one more day to tetsuya's roulette... oops i gotta rip my single first before get sleep



oyasumi all

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le grans voyage

watching le grand voyage for the 3rd time. this time i watch it on Metro TV. this is one of my fave movie.. abt a simple love between a father and son. reeda an french - moroccan teenagers who has to accompany his father on a pilgrim to mecca, something that he reluctanly agree. As both start on a road trip thousands of kilometres away from southern france the once-icy father-and-son relationship starts to thaw as both gradually come to know each other. the director here try to explain the gap between father and son by their different languange. reeda the son always speak france, meanwhile the father speak arabic, eventough in necessary case he can speak french.. his choice to speak only arabic to his son is on purpose, he wants to teach the son the language cos the son has lost touch with everything that connect him with their old traditions and culture. he's became so french than moroccan. never had his pray, drinking alcohol and never speak arabic... just like in most scenes... he never speak arabic.

a long the way.. they meet several characters and accidents. the son learn more abt islam and why his father tought it would be better to make a pilgrimage with car than plane. he said.. it's better on foot than riding horse, it's better riding horse that car, it's better riding car than a ship.. and the last one it's better with ship than plane. The route taken by the father and son goes from Provence, France through Italy, Slovenia, Croatia, Serbia, Bulgaria, Turkey, Syria, and Jordan before reaching Saudi Arabia.

i love this movie so much because it's so universal, about how to connects a father and son who are separated by a wide cultural gap. To me it's not a religious movie although there are some scenes taken in Mecca during hajj. things like this happen to anyone with their different cultures and age. sometimes parents wants the best for their son/daughter.. including abt religion. in my opinion.. we holds our religion becos our parents did it to, it past from generation to generation. just like me.. i am moslem cause my parents, my grandparents grand grand parents and anchestor were moslem. i know just a little bit abt other religion.. becoz my cousin was catholic. so they have some tendencies to force their son/daughters to do things that are required by our religion so that both parents and son dont go to hell. just like me. my mom used to force me to have 5 times pray. once in the dawn, noon, afternoon,@ six and seven PM. maybe i'm just like reeda.. who always missed his prayer..eventough i did'nt drink alcohol but i love reading and watching yaoi related things i missed my dawn pray a lot *sighs* oo i had a big trouble in wake up early.

so the problem is how to make someone perform thoose prays and other duties sincerely?... or maybe everybody has their own reeda moment? a moment that brought them to the right path .. just like in thoose ridiculous drama. too bad it has'nt happened to me. i am doing that pray just becos i'm afraid of hell... i hasn't get into the stage where i consider pray as a needs that i can't live without.

i still amazed with how easily they can go on pilgrim to mecca by car. hohoho we can't do that here in indonesia. pilgrim to mecca is something really big. it cost a lot and we had to queue @ least a year before. just like my friend.. he signed up this year.. just to get to mecca in 2011. fiuh..reeda's journey with his father to mecca remaids me of sun go kong's journey to the west

i still cried a lot watch the ending.. how reeda washing his father body in mecca.... oo it's so sad. i have to squeeze my handkerchief that already wet with my snot tears. i can't use kleenex this time cos it's againts the go green programe.
i hope after watch this movie for the 3rd times.. i'll be able to get up earlier.. to do my dawn prayer.. AMIIIIN

but now is already 1.00 am ... i think i'm gonna miss it again... good please have mercy on me

ah yepp see the thriller

old boy

entah knapa hari2 inni saia diberikan kemurahan oleh Tuhan Yang Maha Esa untuk mengambil hikmah lewat pelem yang saia tuntun ... jika byasanya saia hanya menemukan pelem yaoi yang ceritanya dangkal, mengandalkan idola plus geje.. en slalu tak skip2 byar cepet sampe pada kiss scene ato malah kalo mujur bedsin.. *tampol diri sendiri ala toshi di depan cermin* kali inni entah knapa saia isa dipertemukan dengan pelem inni . sebenernya inni adalah pelem yang suda saia tuntun berkali2 sampe CDx aus dan kmaren malam diputer di metro tipi. entah knapa dua minggu inni metro konsisten memutar pelem2 korea yang berkualitas.

Pelem yang saia maksud tentulah Old boy
pelem keluaran tahun 2003 yang memenangkan grand prix di festival film channes dan telah diakui seluruh dunia, sebage film yang menggigit. but musti saia ingatkan bahwa pelem inni bukanlah pelem yang ditujukan bagi anda2 sekalian yang jatuh cinta pada hallyu karena kisah cinta yang menguras air mata di endless love/stairway to heaven ato malah terpingkal2 menertawakan kekocakan hubungan antara han ji en dan lee yong jae dalam full house. ini adalah tipikal pelem kekerasan yang akan meninggalkan perasaan aneh dan tidak enak dalam dada. perasaan yang sesak di dada pas pelem mencapai ending ketika tahu apa alasan di balik pemenjaraan selama bertahun2 yang dialami oleh oh daesu yang dimainkan dengan sangat apik oleh choi min sik.

film menceritakan tentang seseorang bernama Daesu yang kasar dan tidak bertanggungjawab serta sering mabuk. daesu yang melarikan diri dari kantor polisi malah tertangkap oleh penculik yang memenjarakannya di sebuah kamar sempit yang mirip love hotel jorok dimana toshi direppu oleh dua bang napi *hiks hiks masi sedih liyat toshi yang kesakitan*. stop weeping for toshi... selayaknya love hotel.. tuh motel dilengkapi dengan tipi dan kamar mandi. terkurung di dalamnya daesu mengetahui kalau istriya telah tewas dan dia adalah si tertuduh utama dalam kasus pembunuhan tsb. setelah 15 tahun akhirnya daesu dibebaskan, diya diberi waktu 5 hari untuk menemukan syapa yang telah melakukan hal kejam tsb padanya sekaligus membals dendam. tanpa tahu bahwa justru diya sendiri yang akan menjadi korban dalam misi balas dendamnya.

seperti layaknya pelem2 korea.. nni pelem membutuhkan kesabaran untuk mendapatkan "harta yang tersembunyi"di dalamnya.bagi orang2 yang tidak sabar ketika menonton dvdnya pasti akan skip2.. pliss jangan dilakukan cos dengan skip2 kita akan kehilangan keasyikannya. karna banyak petunjuk yang mengacu pada keutuhan cerita. aktor utama choi minsik sangat total memerankan karakter daesu yang serampangan, aga gila karena kebanyakan berhalusinasi di kamar. bayangkan bagaimana diya musti menahan hasrat api di bawah perutnya ketika pertama keluar kamar setelah terkurung 15 tahun . hal tersebut digambarkan dengan akting yang sangat jempolan pada adegan di lift bersama seorang wanita.. teriakannya tuh sangat menyayat hati... jadi kek jeritan humbert humbert yang melihat lolita terbujur di pasir pantai dengan bikininya tapi tak bisa melakukan apa2. daesu yang membayangkan semut merayap di bawah kulitnya, daesu yang memakan gurita hidup tanpa diikat lagi.. tentu ja diya pengsan karna sengatan tentakel. blom lagi banyak sekali adegan creepy yang pastinya akan mengaduk2 perut. inni pelem dengan fighting scenes yang menurut saia paling bagus. isa disejajarkan dengan adegan perkelahian jackiechan di drunken master

liyat adegan perkelahian dengan palu yang legendaris disinni

saia ja tetep menutup mata ketika daesu mencabut gigi bapaknya kimbum di dream dengan ujung palu, ketika daesu memotong sendiri lidahnya agar si villain yang entah kenapa kok sangat familiar plus tampan tidak mengatakan kebenarannya pada mido. twist terbesar dalam film ini ada dalam kotak ungu yang dibuka oleh daesu.. kotak yang membuatnya rela menjadi anjing.. menjilat2 sepatu si villain bahkan memotong lidah sendiri. saia tidak akan mengatakan apa yang ada dalam kotak.. biyarlah itu tersimpan so yang blom nuntun dapat efek dari pelem inni.

pertama nuntun pelem inni sekitar tahun 2004, tahun2 dimana saia sangat dekat dengan dunia kekerasan... hati saia bertanya.. knapa siyy bapa sutradara tuh musti menggambarkan penderitaan oh daesu sedemikian rupa?... luka fisik dan luka batin yang tidak akan isa ditanggung oleh siyapapun. kekejaman tersebut menjadi bisa dimaklumi ketika kita mencapai klimaks. kesalahan masa lampau... kesalahan enteng yang membawa akibat besar berujung pada penyiksaan yang terencana di masa depan. di masa lalu daesu pernah memergoki teman ce smanya bercinta dengan adiknya yakni si villain di ruang kelas. daese hanya menceritakan hal tersebut kepada sahabatnya.. tapi dasar sahabat itu ember tersebarlah cerita tsb ke seluruh sekolah plus bumbu2 yang mengatakan kalo si cewek adalah wanita murahan dan sekarang hamil. karna stress akhirnya wanita itu bunuh diri.. *sighs*
dalam film inni dikatakan baik pasir maupun batu keduanya sama2 tenggelam dalam air. jika diibaratkan... kesalahan yang dilakukan oleh daesu di masa lalu sekecil pasir yang akan tenggelam perlahan2 menunggu waktu yang tepat untuk mendapatkan pelajaran yang setimpal.

pelajaran utama dalam film inni adalah watch your mouth, your eyes.. yang terpenting adalah mind your own shit. kebetulan itu adalah motto saia ..XD dunia menjadi kacau ketika orang mulai mencari tahu urusan orang lain dan kemudian menceritakannya pada orang lain. cerita ke satu orang akan membuat berita yang fubar belom tentu tersebut menjadi rahasia umum. kita selayaknya harus bisa menjaga rahasia orang lain. tidak selayaknya menceritakan aib orang lain apalagi membuatnya menjadi komersial seperti sekarang ini. dunia industri infotainmen dibangun dengan pondasi tersebut. didukung dengan faktor psikologis orang2 indonesia yang suka mencampuri urusan orang lain dan sok teu. plus lagi begitu mudahnya mereka terjebak akan euforia massa. jadi ingat tadi menonton infotainmen.. ttg titi DJ yang dengan santainya menceritakan kepada wartawan bahwa KD menghilang abis memberikan pernyataan cere dengan anang ternyata pergi ke singapur untuk memanjangkan rambutnya di salah satu salon mahal. nah lho.. kek mana cuba kalo KD jadi rugi gara2 pernyataan titi?.. orang pasti bilang dasar ganjen orang abis dicere malah nyalon ke singapur bukannya intropeksi diri blha blah blah.. mulut orang indo gaga isa dihentikan geh kalo suda menggosip. semakin turun kan imej KD di mata masyarakat? sementara aktis juga butuh imej untuk membangun karirnya to?
seorang daesuk mengalami hal tersebut hanya gara hal sepele. menonton pelem inni sejak pertama kali telah membuat saia belajar untuk lebih baik diyam jika tidak bisa mengandalikan mulut. karna berpikir sebelum berbicara juga tidak mudah. kadang dunia tidak bisa diandalkan .. seperti yang dikatakan oh daesu..

"tertawalah maka dunia akan tertawa bersamamu dan merataplah maka kao akan meratap sendiri"
bagus kalo cuman meratap sendiri.. kek mana kalo ditertawai dunia?

Pelem inni adalah tonggak yang paling penting akan kebangkitan dunia pefeleman korea, jika hongkong dengan IAnya.. maka korea punya trilogi vengeance. om quentin ja suka .sangat worthy untuk ditonton jika ingin sesuatu yang bermakna.. bukan sekedar effect belaka. tapi sekali lagi saia ingatkan inni adalah tipe pelem yang harus ditonton dengan sepenuh hati. tonton juga trilogi vengeance yang lain yakni sympathy for mr. vengeance dan sympathy for lady vengeance.

edit... nni diya villain nan tampan.. jyah pantes pamiliar ternyata pernah maen ma choi ji woo

iron man

yesterday i spent my run away time watching movie with my sister. we had a new theater inside a new mall here yay i got XXI here!! finally i can watch the new movies, i don't have to wait a month to see all the new movies.

i've finally watched iron man 2, RDJ really a bad boy i love RDJ. he did a great great job with toni's character. i love the first scene.. toni dancing with the ironettes in the stark expo.. and then his speech in the senat hearing. it's like the punk version of Jack nicholson's speech in the end of A few Good men. hahaha i always love the villian. but since toni is a bad ass here.. so i'm not fallin' to ivan vanko the crazy scientist from soviet.. whoo if you already watch this movie.. you gotta pay attention to how many tatoos that ivan had in his huge almost like kingkong body. i love mickey rourke since in the wrestler.. so when i heard that he's gonna do the ivan vanko/whiplash character .. i said hee? whiplash gonna wrestling with toni stark? LOL. but he did a good job.. his russian accent, the way he speak russian and said that the hammer's firewall is all rubbish. it's kinda cool

it great .. it's better than transformer II *i was sleep during the movie* but still below my expectation, nothing new,, the're wasting too many fighting scenes at the first part.. i can't get the climax feeling in the end. the last fighting between ivan with his new armour suit against iron man and his sidekick was just so so. but still it entertaining.. at least it relaxed me. ah yess just like me tony stark drinking clorophyl everyday to reduce the toxin in his blood.


and then we had window shopping and i saw the cronicle 4 DVD, OMG for the first time i saw l'arc stuff in stores. everybody know, as an overseas fans i never had a chance to buy the l'arc/hyde/vamps stuff straight from their stores. so it'd like magic i should've pictured but my batterei is low and i'm out of money. i didn't buy it just touching it.. actually it's the taiwan version cost 270.000 rupiah lot's cheaper than the japan version off course. i feel so amazed just like when i saw l'arc video for the fist time in my Tivi. it so YAY!!!

and i saw juken with his new pink hair... hoo.. after all the pinkness in tetsuya's roulette now juken had his hair pink... he might have been influenced by the king.. maybe hyde told him abt tetsuya's new video... and said this silly thing.. "come on juken you gotta try pink.. pink is the new black "

like a virgin?

i've watched glee 2nd season, they did manage to built another war between sue and the glee coach.. haish i can't even remember his name. it's great..especially the madonna episode.. when rachel, finn, and the counseling teacher *i don't remember her name also, but she's henry's pregnant girlfriend in ugly betty* try to have sex for the fist time accompanied by madonna's song, i remember my first time too. not the sex.. cos i never had a sex until now *Cough cough*.. still waiting for my future husband if he ever exist.

my fist time having curiosity about sex is so LOOLastic . it happened during my yearly vacation in junior high, i spent my holiday watching andy lau's Return of the Condor hero, a great epic chinese series, i was very curius abt what the taois did to Siao Lung Li , he just sleep beside her and kiss her, but why did she had to run away from Yoko? i keep thinking abt that until my vacation over. back in the dorm, one of my friend told me that they had sex? you get sex and then you got yourself pregnant. then in my javanese class, my teacher explain abt centhini book he said the book explain abt lots of things started from our relationship with good, human including sex. but he didn't explain to us abt the sex part off course not, it's straight islamic boarding school, and i can't read the book becos it's written in javanese letter. i said to myself if he didn't want to explained to me.. i'll find it myself. becos i don't have the net, no PC and tivi so i got myself locked in public library every sunday

first i was thinking abt kamasutra the indian book of sex.. but no.. it's in adult section, i can't get into it. and then i found this interesting book in chinese section. " Sexual life in ancient china;a preliminary survey of chinese sex and society from ca. 1500 BC till 1644 AD" by robert van gulik. i was wondering why didn't theY put this 400 pages book on adult section? but i didn't give a damn care, maybe they just forget abt this book. so i got my self in the corner, the most quiet corner.

i was so excited, i keep reading it and searching for the super hot part XD, but.. what happened next? DANG!! robert van gulik wrote all the hot parts in latin, DAMN!! no one understand latin.. except my mom sent me to a boarding school run by jesuits. the only latin words that i understand is oryza sativa and ora et labora. hohohoho i'm totally weird. watching the madonna episode of glee really brings me back to the past .

ah yepp i have theauteurs account now, hehehe.. it's great i can watch movie for free, i can talk abt movie there with lot's of expert.. okay i'm not talking to them actually, just reading their comments becos it's pro league. ack.. i gotta learn MORE abt movie from them.

the last.. finally i know what they hyde and kaz talked abt .. thanks miko_chan for telling me , aish he didn't talked abt the kiss..

meh

my face book is totally messed. i dunno it keeps crashing when i wanna open it. i've already installed google chrome yes it worked but still i can't make a coment there.
err dunno what i'm gonna write... i just can't wait for my vamps CD and DVD. aish why they keep teasing me with all the releases?. if i am a smart one and not blinded my my full worship to hyde sama i should've just wait and buy the album than buying their single. eventually all the single gonna be in their 2nd album right. this is whay they called with playing with girls emotion. oh come on i'm not a girl anymore. they can say whatever they want, but still i'll buy all their singles... as long as i'm happy. and i wanna give my support to hyde sama.

ah yess finally i've voted for my mayor today, just like usual i always choose the looser. my candidate didn't win this time. they only got 5,4 % from all total votes, so the incumbent won.

ah yepp i really shocked after saw tetsu's poodle noodle hair... oh come on did he feel miserable enough after what hyde did to the blonde in Devil Side video?




pluss i can't stop LOLed to after watching the Roulette PV CS.. what he's trying to do? doing the banana pole dancing? but at least tetsuya's miserable hair didn't last long, becos he got better hair in the vid.

okay .. setelah kelebaian saia kmaren keknya tuhan kasi saia a very happy day... bener2 hepi day cos.. disamping dvd laruku saia akhirnya tiba dengan selamat.. saia bli dvd inni buat gantikan dvd saia yang rusak...haish saia takutnya nyasar sualnya lamma nian ga nyampe2 ke rumah.. eh ada kabar kalo just friend pelem yaoi yang lamma saia tunggu2 sejak bulan desember akhirnya ada yang oplot di tutup. pelem indie dengan tema kek gini emang jarang beredar. putus asa cari dvdnya dimana2.. dari yesasia , amazon, ampe Cd jepun tak telusuri ttp ga ada.. aih pengen nangis..*ditabok karna lebai*. anjiir saia semalam cuman tidur 2 jam gara2 donlot inni pelem. sampe abis 5 gelas es milo jumbo...

meski ni pelem masi raw tanpa subtitle english .. tappi mudah diikuti jalan ceritanya. dengan kosakata korea saia yang amat sangat terbatas pada kata2 makian di pelem dan serial korea.. saia isa ngarti apa yang dimaksud ma bapa sutradara yaoi di pelem inni. inni lebi bagus daripada pelem yaoi bisunya kmaren.. BOY MEETs BOY... yang samma sekali ga da dialog kek pelem 3 ironnya mongryong. pelem inni hanya berdurasi 30 menit.. samma kek yang diberitakan di majalah asian star yang sudah terlanjur tak kirimin surat protes gara2 pampe bilang nih pelem 54 menit di hancinema. aih bodohnya saia.. jlas geh jadi 54 menit sualna kalo dvd kan ada making2nya. aaaa gaga bakalan cd suju geh *jongkok minum susu milo*


aktornya manis2.. terutama lee ji hoon si uke yang muncul pertama dengan nyanyian khas karoke korea.

semenya juga oke

ituh lee ji hon gesturnya bener2 gey. gaya bicara.. gaya cemas waktu salah nulis hubungan di ruang temu kadet, cara dya ketawa pas ketemu ma semenya. dan kek mana dya banjir kata2 ketika menjelaskan ttg coklat yang dibuatnya khusus buwat pacarnya di wamil yang ternyata adalah cowok. hahahaha.. niat mau seneng2 samma pacar malah keganggu dengan kedatangan mamak si seme. akhirnya mereka betiga nginap di losmen yang samma. nunggu mamaknya tidur supaia isa melancarkan jurus menyalakan api si uke wkwkwkwk lucu kali ih

kemistry mereka bener2 dah.. dan bedsinnya .. omygay.. ituh aktor bener2 bagus aktingnya ato mereka bener2 pacaran di dunia nyata. *PLAKK* kiss scenenya.. yay i love boys kissing each other tappi kissu yang inni emang paling yahud. bahkan keahlian toshipun kalah jika dibandingkan ma lee ji hon. both off them kiss passionately. saling memburu satu sama lain plus kejar2an dengan waktu mumpung mamaknya gi pergi. deg2annya bener2 dapet. lagi hot2nya ada pula acara ngetawain CD si uke yang begambar mickey mouse. anjiir jenius pisan ituh sotradara. bikin suasana lebih hangat lebi dalam gt cinta mereka. emang sih love scene di pelem BL pasti lebih bagus jika dibandingkan ma GAV yang straight to the point. inni ada seninya gt dan didukung oleh tata cahaya serta sinematografi yang lebi mumpuni. jika makanan inni ibaratnya kue kecil mahal yang dijual di Bread talk.. kek kue yang ditangani oleh satu master pastry yang ahli dalam memberikan keindahan dari sudut mata maupun kecapan lidah. aaa ..cepat sekali habis.. bikin kita pengen lebih lebih dan lebih tanpa enek. sementara GAV adalah roti pisang besar yang berguna untuk menyumpal mata kita yang lapar yaoi. lebi ke sisi fungsionalnya.

saia suka reaksi mamaknya pas nemu anaknya gi reppu2an ma cowok.. lyat sambil bingung ga taw musti appa trus ambil dompet, ke halte en pulang. baru kemudiian nangis sesenggukan di rumah, sementara li jee hon malah nungguin mamak pacarnya tuh di depan rumah sampe ketiduran. gaga dijlaskan secara gamblang apakah mamaknya tuh setubuh ato ndak ma pilihan anaknya tappi ada adegan si seme nyanyi dengan diiringi flashback kemesraan ibu dan anak. dan di akhir lagu.. patung yesus di gereja tempat mamaknya meratap.. tersenyum. so saia simpulkan akhirnya mamaknya isa nerima kalo anaknya gey.

nih pilem isa dituntun disinni.. pelemnya part 1 ampe 3... makingnya part 4 ampe 6 *kredit buat yang punya tutup en pampe yang esemes saia malam2*

push me hard

tappi ada bagian yang saia ga mudeng.. bagian ni cewek geje.. ck pengen segra dapat yang bersub.. supaia mudeng apa pengaruh tuh cewek... tappi untuk sekarang cukup inni dolo , karna seperti byasa cewek mah ga penting di pelem yaoi..

manisan cowoknya daripada si cewek geje.. ato emang disengaja kali.. dicarikan cewek yang ga bgt tjantik kek gini.
dan inni poto sutradara gey gi kumpul ma anak asuhnya.. aktor pelem just friend en boy meets boy